Friday, January 1, 2010

Opening up

I have been feeling so negative in the past year. I have tried so damn hard not to bring that FULLY here.

I believe that in the pursuit of trying to be positive I have become more withdrawn within myself. So as much as I did/do not want to make this a down and out blog. I am going to be honest with myself and let this take its course here. I know that means you will see more of the bad than usual. That is part of the reason why I have not blogged more regularly. I didn't want to show that negative girl that I have become.

So 2010 begins with me being more real even if it means that I am negative. I will find the real me let me rephrase that, I will find the new person who can deal with what life is throwing at me. I do feel like it is more than one person can really handle.


Anonymous said...

Well girl I sure hope your 2010 is your best year EVER!

Paula said...

Honey, please be yourself. I like you exactly teh way you are. With strength and with weaknesses, with hope and despair. You have everything it takes to better yourself. All insde you just need to be allowed out or to be re-learned. I am having a hard time showing a different ME too, still I realised that not everyone is running away or pulling his hair when confronted with a different ME.Plenty of safe hugs to you.

Just Be Real said...

Appreciate your post. Just be real. Do not fight the emotions. The will work themselves out eventually. Cry, get angry, be human. I am learning to do this as well. Blessings and hugs.