A little bit of everything

I still don't have any spirit in me....It is kind of disappointing. I was hoping that Thanksgiving was going to give me that little edge and get me out of this funk. I have been asked what I want for christmas and I can't even muster up anything. I am not even thinking about it. This is so strange to me...but I have talked to a few people who are feeling the same way.

I don't know about any of you but I love doing secret santa at work. It is the most fun for me. Being able to surprise someone and get to see the look on their face is just a bonus. I got my secret pal info yesterday and I couldn't wait to shower this person with little gifts. I probably spent about $30 and there are just three more things I want to get. So I have the next three weeks to bring something in to make them smile.

So I have this HUGE secret that is going to hit the fan soon. As all of you know, I had two grandkids born this year bringing the total to four......Well I hear there is a 5th one on the way! Now granted another baby to love on is awesome, but damn, use a condom already!!! I don't understand why my daughter can't use a damn condom. She is 22 and this is the 4th child for fucks sake. This is ridiculous.

I vaguely spoke of some new news that I just can't wrap my fingers around. This is very personal and a only a few will know of this. I don't understand it! I don't know why me!!! I mean I must have really pissed some people off in my day. I am working on dealing with it and I have had some great support from a couple of people...Thank you!

Ok, so my fun, happy news! My BFF, received her christmas gift in the mail yesterday. It was very important to make sure she had something that was from my heart!! It had to be meaningful and she had to have it before she began to make her move forward in her life. She absolutely loved it and that put the biggest smile on my face. (I wish I could have seen her face) I know she knows I love her to no end, but I feel like I can't tell her enough, although, with a friend like that some words never need be spoken.

I love you BFF and I am excited about your new journey, no matter how scared or hurt you may feel, just know that being able to be a part of it as well as a major support for you day or night, is the least I could do. But please know that if I had or find a sugar daddy I would give you everything to help you get where you need to be (and one of those would be for you to be here).
I know we are far apart in distance but you are with me always in my heart! OK, this really got a bit mushy anyone have a puke bucket close by....lol

I have rattled on enough. Have a great weekend!

(Milli Vinilli Rulz)

Have you seen my spirit????

The holiday season has snuck up on us once again. I am usually the one who would have their tree up already (yeah I know, I am one of those people)!!! This year I can't seem to muster up the spirit. I just don't have the energy or want to put the time in.

Now I know you have read that I have started shopping. My goal is to be finished as soon as possible so it can just be done. This is so unusual for me. It's kind of like my birthday, I just didn't have the spirit or energy this year.

I think I need a calgon moment...lol For those of you old enough to remember.

On a higher note.....I managed to rent what I think are some pretty good movies. Just another excuse to grab the knitted throw from my BFF and curl up on my overstuffed/oversized recliner and pop the popcorn that I got free for renting so many movies.

There are a few movies at the theater I would like to see as well. Anyone have any recommendations??

Have a great weekend

Touching

As I sit here trying to understand all things that are and have happened to me.....There usually comes something that just strikes you for some reason. I was watching a TV show tonight and the ending of the show had this song playing and I couldn't focus on the show as much as the song seemed like it was getting louder and louder...I had to google it.

This song just filled my heart and brought a tear to my eye.....not for the words but for the subtle raspyness of this voice, the feel of the music strumming from her fingers, it just makes me want to sigh.....

Hope you listen if you have a moment...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pqwd88xhAoI