I feel like a poster child for bad news and life altering experiences.
I am still trying to put any piece of this together. I received some news about some test results that has and is going to change the rest of my life. I cried for a little bit, trying to keep some wits about myself, because screaming was my first instinct. The doctor was extremely supportive which was very very helpful. He pleaded with me to not lose any sleep over this. All I wanted at the time was my BFF and a big hug. Thanks BFF for decifering through the tears, telling me things are going to be ok, and most of all making me laugh.
I am so fucking scared. I want to curl up and cry my eyes out. I know it will not change the results but shit I don't understand why ME!!! Can't I just catch a break, just once. This won't be something I will be able to fully disclose. I can say that the pre-emptive medication we used before the results were in caused an extreme allergy. That is not a good thing. I ended up in an ambulance and emergency room for hours. It was scary but everything is allright now.
I know that they say that which doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Well at this point I should be wonder woman and superman rolled up into one. That means I have super powers....so should I use them for good or evil????
I just wanted to get this out in some way. Thanks everyone
that f*cking show
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