My health intertwines with life

Hello All--

I haven't been on here in a few days and just realized that the auto post I set up never posted. Thanks auto post....Grrrr

Been exhausted lately, sometimes the pain is overwhelming and other times it gives me a break.
I have had a break for a few days now. I know that the pain really drains me and the meds don't help as much as I think they should. But who am I to ask for another damn pill..lol

I am looking forward to and dreading some life changing events with my health which will effect or better yet change my life. As the two intertwine I take another deep breath. Blood work has been so horrible and I am expecting the Dr. to put a hold on the biggest most important thing in my life once again. It is understandable and there is nothing I can say or do this time to compromise or fight for. My fight is over, I have no energy to fight anymore. I am accepting this decision before I even see the Dr. It hurts but it is truly a matter of life or death.....and as much as I feel like I have a foot in the grave on a daily basis I am happy to be alive.

I know there are going to be a few tests and a procedure in my future as well. Updates will happen as these results come back.

Been catching up on some movies lately. I have look at three since last night. I would recommend...Caught in the Crossfire. It's a drama with a twist, my favorite kind.

Well I need to go check on my food and see why my post didn't post.

Have a great weekend
ChocDrop

It's been awhile, I know

I last posted about some life-threatening events. They really hurt my heart for a while. Been trying to map out my future with all the delays.
Working on being more positive. As always, work presents its little obstacles. Some days I feel super confident about my job and then other times I worry that this economy will have me jobless. This would be a problem with all the plans I am making.
My youngest grandson has turned a year old. He is the cutest thing. I can't believe it has been a year. But I love to see those little ones grow and learn.

I really want this blog to become more positive. With that said I have not posted much because I want to turn this around. I know that this is what makes me stronger but I am trying to get myself back to the positive, out-going person I used to be.

Until next time...I will be catching up as time allows.
Have a great day....crap I better get some more sleep work beacons rather early.

Choc Drop

Short update

I am finally feeling better, got the meds I needed yesterday and I have felt like a new woman!!!!

I want to let you guys know I have been reading your blogs pretty faithfully lately but I have not been responding. It is to hard to respond on my BB. Sometimes I have tried and no success because it won't bring up the link to Post a comment.
I have been lucky enough to be online for a short time this morning. I have had a few things to catch up on things here as well.

Medically I have some things going on I am doing some tests for....I also have a new thing that I am avoiding with my doctor...NO new diagnosis for me until I am ready.

I will touch base in a few days as I hope to be able to log on again soon. Must get my email cleaned out if I can still stay on.

Hugs to everyone