I am still here!!!

It has been a long month.....and yes I have missed you all!!!
I have had more medical issues, again! I tell you what I am so tired of seeing and talking to doctors. Unfortunately, it is all REAL and not a figment of my imagination.

I would have been back sooner but my roommate got wireless internet (a couple months ago) and my laptop computer has gone to SHIT! It has gotten even worse in the past couple of weeks. Most of the time I can't even log on or it can't find the damn server. Anyway, you can see I am not a techy guru so I just go with it when I can get on.

Been feeling like a change is coming, but not sure what. I have been a little put off with some of the closest people to me. I know that I have really become withdrawn from most everyone and everything. This change I am feeling, I hope is going to be me coming out of this little box I have put myself in.

Well I have some breakfast cooking and I have been awake ALL night long......and NO it had nothing to do with SEX or alcohol (damn it)..lol

Broken Heart/Justice Served

I have had my highest high and my lowest low today all within 4 hours of each other.

My Heart is broken....He, the one who has been in my life for over 7 years......says "I am sorry....You were the best"!!!! All I could feel were daggers hitting every possible part of my body.

(I had to tell him something, that I knew would change everything. It changed my life and it would change us.)

Mentally, I expected this the other day. But I tell you what, my heart was not prepared for this and is crushed. This was really going to be the end, WTF not yet. I never thought this was going to HURT this bad.

The last words were said by him..."We have a memory..most spend a lifetime fantasizing..we lived it."

Damn I am going to miss him like no other!!!!!! As I sit here crying, I appreciate him being honest with me.

On to the BEST news.
The legal matter I have been pretty vague about finally came to an end today. Pleading guilty were the words I have been waiting to hear. The bastard is going to jail for crimes he committed against my family. I wish the sentence was more but some justice will be served. Rot in hell!!!!

I need to take some time to bury my face in a pillow and scream.......I will update you with more things that are going on when I can keep my composure.

Hump day

Just thought I would drop in after a few bad days.

I am just an emotional wreck. This week started out bad with a work problem that I had to immediately fix bright and early monday morning.

Had a problem with some meds getting stuck in my throat. I have to admit that it is painful when it happens. I am ok, just a bit of a sore throat.

Anyway, I should be sleeping!!!!

Happy Hump Day